Goals Make It Work (hopefully)

Woah, five months has gone by fast. I have been back at work for about a month after four months off with my beautiful baby boys. I meant to write more and get myself together during that time, but you know, spending time with my boys was more important. Also, newborns are very time consuming. Haha

So we’ve decided to take vacation (I know, I know – I just got back) at the end of August. That gives me roughly 4 months to get to my goal of 150lbs. Plus it would be nice to fit in the clothes I already own regardless of the beach’s

I have 22lbs left to lose post baby, so basically I have to drop 5.5lbs a month to meet my August goal deadline…..might be a stretch there.

At the end of my pregnancy and for some time after the twins were born I was desperate to go to the gym. I really still had that itch to go and hit the weight room and feel that sweat and burn. I went and walked with the boys in a carrier and did a few workouts, but I just wasn’t ready physically and making the time or having energy on no sleep made it rough. Flash forward to return to work, boys in daycare, slightly more sleep, and it’s still so difficult to make it to the gym. Plus, I’ve lost that loving feeling for the gym. My drive for it is all gone. 😩

I’d rather sit on the couch or sleep (oh sleep, how I love thee). I can barely mentally get myself psyched for it, let alone push through the physical exhaustion. At least in the past I could picture myself slinging those weights and getting after my workout even if physically I wasn’t able.

Cue the request to join a 3 month diet bet style weight loss challenge with some friends and also two different step challenges at work with some pretty good prizes. While I’m still exhausted, I decided I’d would get back after it using these challenges as my motivation. I want to win, but also I don’t want to finish last in any of it, so here we go.

I started back to the gym on Monday and went every day until Friday when I had an all day volunteer event and had to skip it. But I was on my feet and moving the entire day so that was a workout on its own. I also take about a 30 minute walk at lunch each day at work to help get the old blood flowing. I can’t say I’m craving the gym yet, but maybe in another few weeks it’ll come back to me.

Sweaty after my third workout back at the gym!

Sweaty me after my third workout back at the gym.

Also, in a slightly TMI mommy moment here, I’m just gonna say I’m finding it rough to workout with boobs full of milk. Even if I pump or breastfeed right before I go, it’s still uncomfortable before I’m done. Not to mention trying to do anything that shakes or bounces my poor girls. Ouch.


Eating. The real struggle (isn’t it always). To give myself some credit, I have made it several days where I ate primarily well. Two out of three meals will be decent. However, my weakness is fatty breakfast food. Sausage biscuits and hash browns are the devil Bobby Boucher. And also delicious.

So that’s an issue I’m working on, but I’m formulating a plan to kick my obsession with biscuits in the butt. Or at least eat them a lot less. Because let’s be honest, I’m not going to stop all together. #biscuitsforlife

I’ve lost about 3lbs in the two weeks before I added back any exercise so I’m interested to see how this first week with extra calorie burn goes as well. I’m predicting an ironic weight gain from a slight increase in muscle mass. But I’ll keep my fingers gets crossed for a 2-3lb loss on fat mass instead. 😁

Cheers to renewing commitment and motivation so I can work towards reaching goals.



Food Find Friday: Snack Trays

It has been a long time since I posted one of these, but I found a new version of a snack tray that has been quite helpful when I need something quick with a good amount of protein in the middle of the night when I’m up with my twins. It’s basically an adult Lunchable and it’s even by Oscar Mayer.

Now I’m not claiming it’s the healthiest option, or even that it meets my normal carb restrictions, but it was 17g of protein and something I could grab quick.

I also really like the Sargento cheese, nut, and fruit trays for a quick high protein snack. I believe they are called Balanced Breaks.

Either one is much better than the candy or other mainly carby snacks around my house (mmmm….Cheetos). And I really need to keep up my protein intake both for bariatric purposes and breastfeeding purposes.

So yeah, just some snacks I like. Keeping this post short and sweet because babies always need me these days.


Two Peas No Longer In My Pod

Best weight loss program ever! Haha. Just kidding. But having delivered my twins I am relieved how much weight came off so quickly.

The morning I checked in at the hospital for delivery I weighed in at the doctor at 221 pounds. Yikes. But then one week after delivery I stepped on the scale at home out of curiosity and was already down to 189. The boys each weighed roughly 6.5 lbs, so that was a nice 13 pound loss right away. The rest was fluid and other junk which took a bit more time to flush out of my system so to speak.

Today (two weeks post delivery) I weighed at 177.4! So that’s fantastic. But I anticipate that’s all the “freebie” pounds I’m going to get from this, so now the real work starts.

With constant feedings, diaper changes, and just general life, I am only now getting around to being able to really plan next steps around fitness. And while I can plan all I want, until the doctor releases me (probably about 4 more weeks) I can’t do much of anything but walk.

Yet, that’s familiar territory for a bariatric patient given that’s all we can do immediately post-op anyway. So while it is sort of like a reset for me in the physical fitness department, I know I can do it and I cannot wait to be back at the gym. That in and of itself is totally bizarre, but I’m thrilled to find that feeling after so many months of zero desire for physical activity. All I desired for the last four months of my pregnancy was naps. 😁 Which I rightfully took as my body needed the rest to bake these buns.

I do plan to run through the six week Charlie Mike program one more time at least, while also integrating my normal favorite classes at the gym (dance in particular). After that I’ll take another look at where I am and what I need to do reach my goals.

My little men, all snoozy after eatingEating on the other hand is a different story because that is something I can get on top of now. Every meal or snack I’m saying in my head “this is the last carby, fatty, sweet, etc. thing” and then I do it all over again the next time I eat. I have been focusing on water better and using protein shakes or nuts and cheese for middle of the night meals/snacks, but it’s the Christmas candy, pizza, tacos, burgers, and sausage biscuits that are doing me wrong of course.

I will be working on re-incorporating high protein items and fresh veggies as much as I can while cutting out the sugar and carbs once again. Really this is a necessary step for health, weight loss, and to support my workouts all around. But I will still have a treat now and then (because my sweet tooth and post-partum hormones will demand it! 😜)

So yeah, work to be done and time to wait, but I have far less distance to go than I was anticipating. I’m hopeful (and motivated) I can quickly knock these 25 – 30 pounds of fat off and build back some muscle to help me haul around these ever growing wee beasties.


Almost done

Feeling massive these days, but already have my eye on the ball for post-pregnancy diet and exercise regimes. Can’t wait to meet these babies!

#bellyfordays #twins #swollbutnotlikethat 🤣

36 weeks 1 day

Broken Barrier

It’s not a barrier I ever wanted to break again, but I have to cut myself some slack given I’m growing two humans.

On Thursday I weighed in at 201.1. With anywhere from 3-6 weeks left, I’m certain to end up well over 210, but I also know I can’t let that get me down.

Have I eaten as well as I should? Absolutely not. Could I have kept some more of this off? Of course. Is it enough to be that big of a deal given the circumstances? Again, absolutely not.

Luckily my sweet babes are growing well and healthy, my BP has been good throughout the pregnancy, I didn’t end up with gestational diabetes (although I had to do that awful three hour test!), and overall my pregnancy has gone very well. So I’ll take my barrier break and be thankful and happy.

Now to just waddle my way through these next several weeks until I have my two adorable crying poop machines to hold and adore in my arms. 🤪👶🏼👶🏼

Double Double Toil and Trouble

Halloween title for fun!  Plus it semi-references my two wee beasties making my belly huge. 

I’m still under 200lbs which is somewhat of a relief, and I’m also still within a healthy weight gain range for my pregnancy which is most important. Although, the doctor did tell me to try to slow down a bit and limit my gain to 1 pound a week because I had a nice run of 2lbs a week between my last two visits and gained 8 pounds. Oops. 

But I’m being much more bariatric compliant and focusing on protein first and more fibrous/filling veggies or fruits to hold me through all the ravenous hunger caused by my two adorable parasites. 

With that dietary change I’ve actually only gained about a pound in the last 2.5-3 weeks instead of 3-6 pounds I was on track for in prior months. I talked with my nurse about that because I was scared now I wasn’t gaining enough!  But not to worry, she said that’s just fine to have a slow steady gain because that would be expected with the switch to more protein and less sugar/junk. She said the babies will take what they need, which is mostly protein right now, so basically it’s like they are gaining weight while I’m losing some and we are cancelling each other out for the most part. 

I’ve already started mentally planning workouts to help steadily work my way back down post-partum. I’m making sure to take in to consideration I will be exhausted from newborns plus recovering from giving birth or even a c-section if the little boogers don’t cooperate. But I also know my limits and when I’m not pushing hard enough or too hard, so I’m not giving myself any passes either. Walking at first may be all I can do, but that’s all I could do right after my VSG, so it’s not all that different. And now I will even have two poop machines strapped to me for extra weight resistance. Or pushing a stroller – which still adds to my workout. 🙂

I’m also reminding myself it won’t be an instant return to 150, so I can be mentally and emotionally prepared for the battle all over again. With all the stress parents with newborns have, keeping any other stress at bay will be very helpful. 

Aside from the physical activity portion, I’m also trying to determine my best mix of bariatric compliance with all I need nutritionally for breastfeeding. I really don’t think it’ll be an issue given it’s a heathy, well rounded diet, but I do want to research and review it before hand to be sure I’m getting all I need. And I can be prepared to add supplements or other food choices where appropriate. 

I did not have a good run at breastfeeding with my older son and was barely able to make enough for him on a daily basis. I never had more than what he would consume in the next one to two feedings on hand. Thinking that may be the case this time is worrisome, but I’m also more prepared for the possibility than I was last time. Being certain my nutrition isn’t impacting that is important to me. And honestly, I had a terrible diet after the first kid, so that may have been the issue. This time I won’t let it be nutrition and hopefully I’ll be able to figure out what else could be a culprit if I have problems again. And honestly, I’ll be less judging of myself if I need to add in formula to get these two fed.  Last time I just made myself depressed and miserable trying to live up to this “perfect breast milk mom” standard which was ridiculous.  But still fingers crossed my milk flows like a fully open faucet and I have nice fat babies. Formula is expensive. 😜

So I’m in the 10-12 week home stretch here, with arrival date anticipated to be between 36-38 weeks. I’m still keeping myself active at the gym, and even did BodyPump this morning. I have opted for naps a few times over getting in a workout, but I figure my body is telling me what it needs so I’m going to listen. My plan is still to stay as  active as I can to help prepare my body to bring these kiddos into the world as easily as possible. But also to get plenty of rest and relaxation while I have the option in between my active times. 

So now I’m going to just sit and relax while I enjoy my babies dancing or cage fighting or whatever they are up to in there right now. 



Post workout selfie a few weeks back


So I just passed the 20 week mark with my pregnancy. And on that same day, I also passed the 20lb mark for pregnancy weight gain. 

Surprisingly I’m not as freaked out about that as I expected. I had more of an “ugh” reaction than a “holy bleeping bleep I weigh 178 pounds again!!!” 

Don’t get me wrong, it’s hard to see those numbers going up, but at least I can feel okay since I’m still within a healthy weight gain range for my pregnancy. 

With having multiples I’m expected to gain a bit more than a singleton pregnancy.  Apparently the range is 35-45 pounds. So allegedly I’m looking at maybe 15-25 more pounds to gain (although I’m sure I’ll end up gaining more because sweets are singing me the song of their people these days). 

I have roughly 16-17 weeks left of my pregnancy, because I’ll be delivering around 36-37 weeks due to the Doublemint Twins. If I gain the average 1.5 pounds per week that all “Theys” says you should during the 2nd and 3rd trimester then I’ll probably gain about 25.5 pounds and weigh about 205 pounds. Looking at that number is scary because I’ll jump back over that 200 mark I swore I’d never cross again. I’m just hoping for my mental and emotional well being that I react to that “milestone” similar to how I reacted to gaining this first 20 pounds.  

I’m also hopeful that I lose at least enough from delivery to be back in “Onderland” before I leave the hospital. Like even just 199 I think will be mentally soothing. But then again I’ll have my hands and mind really full of more important things and hopefully not even notice my weight for several weeks anyway. 🙂 

In the mean time, I continue to focus on going to the gym regularly and working to keep myself in a healthy place so I have an easier recovery and will be able to enjoy my babies without pain or struggle from being overweight. 



20 Weeks! – You’re Kicking Me Smalls